生年不满百

腊月二十四，小年夜，年桔和年花铺满了广州的街头巷尾，又嗅到了那种久违了的过年的的味道。上次闻到这种味道，彷佛已经是遥远得在n个光年之外的事情，又彷佛从未曾经。
在刹那间，时间已经无情滑过。而我，似乎是个无所事事的局外人，漠不关己地看着身外的时空，看着一场场悲欢离合的故事。只是，只是在心还会疼痛的那么一瞬，才悲伤地想起，自己仍是舞台上，一个并不称职的演员。
2006年，谁曾陪自己走过，谁曾见证自己，还站立在这个舞台上，还在行走，在说话，在欢乐和流泪。
一双NIKKO登山鞋，380元，2001年购于南京金鹰商场。后来，这双鞋陪我走过黄山、皖南和浙江，陪我走过在新疆的日子，从新疆回来的时候，鞋带已经磨断。后来，又到了广州，走过阳朔，走过贵州。等到了四月底出发去甘南之前，它已经是衰老不堪，只有放弃，并被打扫进了垃圾堆。
一只HEXAR相机，3200元，05年二手购入。在周围数码相机的汪洋大海里，我开始了自己的旁轴历程。即使在旁轴相机里，HEXAR也是特立独行的，那支35/2的镜头，沉静如秋水，锐利如匕首，渐渐地，我开始习惯这种低调，安静和羞涩的拍摄方式。到了十月，我将它卖出，换回了一台LEICA MINILUX，LEICA的名气会响亮很多，但或许，我会越来越怀念HEXAR，又或许，我会重新淘来一台，放在我的书架上，不为别的，仅仅看看它的镜头，就已心满意足。
一支YONEX羽毛球拍，单位发的纪念品，05年入手。开始打羽毛球，仅仅是为了出汗，打中空气的次数比打中球多得多。打羽毛球，不像踢足球，没法在场上散步，没法偷懒，对我这种懒人尤为合适。后来，到了06年底，开始疯狂地打球，每周三到四次这种频率。技术一如既往地臭，但是，我现在往往是在场上坚持时间最长的人。
一处房子，年初购入，年尾装修。以前，我以为它是family,可爸妈觉得它像宿舍，现在，爸妈认为它是家，我却觉得，它又仅仅是一间apartment

当代摄影大师:20位人性见证者——摄影家参考丛书
都市灵魂——内心的景摄影丛书 
当代摄影新锐：17位影象新生代——摄影家参考丛书
摄影大师对话录——摄影家参考丛书
摄影名作的诞生——摄影家参考丛书
面对摄影大师——摄影家参考丛书 
我将是你的镜子--世界当代摄影家告白
世纪转身：中国社会变迁的视觉记忆（附光盘）
摄影记事 
A.亚当斯论摄影（世纪典藏版）
微观动机与宏观行为——当代世界学术名著.经济学系列
博尔赫斯谈艺录:巨擘书库·博尔赫斯核心文集
博尔赫斯诗选
心是孤独的猎手
曼德尔施塔姆诗选
博尔赫斯八十忆旧 
龙旗飘扬的舰队——中国近代海军兴衰史
天公不语对枯棋：晚清的政局和人物
如彗星划过夜空：近距离看美国之四 
战略管理咨询实务
财务管理咨询实务
高级咨询顾问专业必备工具大全
营销管理咨询实务 
公司战略透视：波士顿顾问公司管理新视野
战略管理咨询实务
组织结构设计咨询实务
困境与出路：企业如何制定破坏性增长战略 
博尔赫斯全集：小说卷、散文卷（上下）、诗歌卷（上下）
中国乡村，社会主义国家——喜玛拉雅学术文库·阅读中国系列
从民族国家拯救历史:民族主义话语与中国现代史研究——阅读中国丛书 
中国诗史
中国思想史（全三册）
天朝的崩溃：鸦片战争再研究
我们这一代
黑暗时代的人们——彼岸人文译丛 
玛格南（精）
顶级摄影器材 
大地的钟声：19世纪法国乡村的音响状况和感官文化
文明史纲
人生十论
帕洛马尔
为什么读经典 
时代映像(1-4)
中国人本：纪实在当代 
傅山的世界：十七世纪中国书法的嬗变
芒果街上的小屋
欧洲（Lonely Planet旅行指南系列） 
武夫当国:北洋军阀统治时期史话(1895-1928)(1-5册)
伶人往事:写给不看戏的人看 
时光·吴家林摄影集
傅山的交往和应酬：艺术社会史的一项个案
纯粹理性批判
看不见的城市
上海人(1990--2000) 
海子的诗
中国登山圣经：登山族攻略地图完全手册
上学记 
一个普通中国人的家族史
悠游小说林/文化生活译丛
美国大城市的死与生（纪念版)
伶人往事:写给不看戏的人看
我反对：一个人大代表的参政传奇 
电影×音乐
朗读者
街头文化：成都公共空间、下层民众与地方政治
追风筝的人
精益解决方案：公司与顾客共创价值与财富——精益思想丛书
长尾理论（亚马逊畅销书榜经管类第一名）
神了(连岳作品)
明朝那些事儿(朱元璋卷) 
电影馆--电光幻影100年
实践自由
文德斯的旅程——电影馆
映像中国——影·响丛书
扫起落叶好过冬(林达著) 
外国现代建筑二十讲
雅致的精神病院：美国一流精神病院里的生与死 
里尔克诗选
集团公司运营管控
杜伊诺哀歌——花生文库
集团公司战略：分析、制定、实施与评价
集团公司战略组织与管理
给青年诗人的信
我们这一代 

整理出这样一张长长的书单之后，我惭愧地承认，这哪里是什么读书总结，明明是购书盘点。

看到好书，就像女人看到漂亮衣服，就像酒鬼闻到酒香，反应基本是生理性的。一年里，仅在当当网就掏出了两千多，真是欲壑难填，鄙视自己。

后果就是，看的时间越来越少，书却积得越来越多，书债缠身哪

快过年了，也就到了过年关的时候。欠债还钱，天经地义，首先要做的就是年终盘点。
盘点，年底的清算。一个人，就是一个世界，一个家，就是一间公司，有资产和负债，有盈余有亏损，有进进出出的现金流。在清算的时候，心情照例会有些沉重。特别是，想到自己面前一张很不体面的会计报表，呜乎哀哉，连做假帐的心都有了。

一、公司重大事项披露。因种种原因，董事总经理离职出走，主营业务之一的新闻事业部也随之撤销，公司遭遇成立以来最大危机。
二、资产负债表（略）。本年度，公司进行了大量固定资产投资，年初购房年尾装修，资产规模急剧膨胀，对公司的财务状况造成严重冲击。出现严重负债，资产负债率极高，企业偿债能力不容乐观。
三、收益表（略）。本年度，业务最大增长点是新闻事业部历经两年投入，终于开始产生效益，占到了公司收入的半壁江山。随着新闻业务的分拆，原有传统业务增长乏力，公司收入急剧下滑。
四、现金流量表（略）。因购房和装修投入大量自有资金，企业现金极度紧张，本年度自由现金流为负。
五、总结和展望。第一，公司未来三年偿债压力极大，将不得不申请母公司的资金支持；第二，寻找新的业务增长点，拉动企业收入，是当务之急；第三，公司将寻找新的战略投资者和招聘新任总经理，以共度时艰，改善公司治理结构，寻求可持续发展。

　　Shall We Choose Death?
　　
　　Bertrand Russell
　　
　　I am speaking not as a Briton, not as a European, not as a member of a western democracy, but as a human being, a member of the species Man, whose continued existence is in doubt. The world is full of conflicts: Jews and Arabs; Indians and Pakistanis; White men and Negroes in Africa; and, overshadowing all minor conflicts, the titanic struggle between communism and anticommunism.
　　
　　Almost everybody who is politically conscious has strong feelings about one or more of these issues; but I want you, if you can, to set aside such feelings for the moment and consider yourself only as a member of a biological species which has had a remarkable history and whose disappearance none of us can desire. I shall try to say no single word which should appeal to one group rather than to another. All, equally, are in peril, and if the peril is understood, there is hope that they may collectively avert it. We have to learn to think in a new way. We have to learn to ask ourselves not what steps can be taken to give military victory to whatever group we prefer, for there no longer are such steps. The question we have to ask ourselves is: What steps can be taken to prevent a military contest of which the issues must be disastrous to all sides?
　　
　　The general public, and even many men in position of authority, have not realized what would be involved in a war with hydrogen bombs. The general public still thinks in terms of the obliteration of cities. It is understood that the new bombs are more powerful than the old and that, while one atomic bomb could obliterate Hiroshima, one hydrogen bomb could obliterate the largest cities such as London, New York, and Moscow. No doubt in a hydrogen-bomb war great cities would be obliterated. But this is one of the minor disasters that would have to be faced. If everybody in London, New York, and Moscow were exterminated, the world might, in the course of a few centuries, recover from the blow. But we now know, especially since the Bikini test, that hydrogen bombs can gradually spread destruction over a much wider area than had been supposed. It is stated on very good authority that a bomb can now be manufactured which will be 25, 000 times as powerful as that which destroyed Hiroshima. Such a bomb, if exploded near the ground or under water, sends radioactive particles into the upper air. They sink gradually and reach the surface of the earth in the form of a deadly dust or rain. It was this dust which infected the Japanese fishermen and their catch of fish although they were outside what American experts believed to be the danger zone. No one knows how widely such lethal radioactive particles might be diffused, but the best authorities are unanimous in saying that a war with hydrogen bombs is quite likely to put an end to the human race. It is feared that if many hydrogen bombs are used there will be universal death – sudden only for a fortunate minority, but for the majority a slow torture of disease and disintegration.
　　
　　Here, then, is the problem which I present to you, stark and dreadful and inescapable: Shall we put an end to the human race; or shall mankind renounce war? People will not face this alternative because it is so difficult to abolish war. The abolition of war will demand distasteful limitations of national sovereignty. But what perhaps impedes understanding of the situation more than anything else is that the term “mankind” feels vague and abstract. People scarcely realize in imagination that the danger is to themselves and their children and their grandchildren, and not only to a dimly apprehended humanity. And so they hope that perhaps war may be allowed to continue provided modern weapons are prohibited. I am afraid this hope is illusory. Whatever agreements not to use hydrogen bombs had be reached in time of peace, they would no longer be considered binding in time of war, and both sides would set to work to manufacture hydrogen bombs as soon as war broke out, for if one side manufactured the bombs and the other did not, the side that manufactured them would inevitable be victorious…
　　
　　As geological time is reckoned, Man has so far existed only for a very short period --- one million years at the most. What he has achieved, especially during the last 6,000 years, is something utterly new in the history of the Cosmos, so far at least as we are acquainted with it. For countless ages the sun rose and set, the moon waxed and waned, the stars shone in the night, but it was only with the coming of Man that these things were understood. In the great world of astronomy and in the little world of the atom, Man has unveiled secrets which might have been thought undiscoverable. In art and literature and religion, some men have shown a sublimity of feeling which makes the species worth preserving. Is all this to end in trivial horror because so few are able to think of Man rather than of this or that group of men? Is our race so destitute of wisdom, so incapable of impartial love, so blind even to the simplest dictates of self-preservation that the last proof of its silly cleverness is to be the extermination of all life on our planet? – for it will be not only men who will perish, but also the animals, whom no one can accuse of communism or anticommunism.
　　
　　I cannot believe that this is to be the end. I would have men forget the ir quarrels for a moment and reflect that, if they will allow themselves to survive, there is every reason to expect the triumphs in the future to exceed immeasurably the triumphs of the past. There lies before us, if we choose continual progress in happiness, knowledge, and wisdom. Shall we, instead, choose death, because we cannot forget our quarrels? I appeal, as a human being to human beings: remember your humanity, and forget the rest. If you can do so, the way lies open to a new Paradise; if you cannot, nothing lies before you but universal death.

徐老师说，你不是在学英语，是在玩。对了，从初中到研究生，俺学英语都快学到天长地久地老天荒了，水平还是一堆bullshit，so,It’s time to change,it’s time to enjoy it.

只是希望，这个游戏，能够在徐老师的互动下，玩下去。

昨天，看了太多的F-word，今天换换口味，约会中可能会用到：）

She is cute as hell.她美得一塌糊涂。

I have a crush on her. 我被她迷住了。

She is a knock-out. 她是个美人。

I had a feeling that he is the MR. Right I was looking for. 我有个感觉，他就是我要找的男人。

He is an alhpa male. 他是男人中的男人。

Do you go out with your gun loaded? 你这一次是想。。。了吗？（当你的室友或朋友出去约会的时候，你可以这么说哦，枪上好膛了才出去。。。）

I haven't gotten laid in a year! 我已经有整整一年没有。。。。。了。

isn't there a hickey on your neck? 你脖子上不是有个唇印吗？（想想hickey这个词，YY中）

she's winking at me.她在向我抛媚眼。

she always play hard-to-get game.她总和我玩矜持

I am over you. 我跟你之间完了。

Maybe I do not deserve you. 也许我真的是配不上你

We don't match each other. 我们两不般配。

Is the cut still painful? 伤口还在痛吗? (用这句话安慰人)

徐老师，在酒吧里怎么和小妞们调情？整点好玩的句子吧，嘿嘿

mother-fucker! 骂人用，指代词，意思是fuck 自己mother的人。非常常用！
you fuckin' cunt! 骂女人用，cunt应该是脏话中骂女人最严重的一个了。不太常用！
bitch! (意思母狗)  dick!(意思“鸟”) 分别针对男女，差不多表示 “贱人”
son of a bitch/sons of bitches/SOB 意思了然
dumbass/jackass   傻比
freak 变态，畸形，傻比
rich prick 有钱的杂种（prick也是生殖器的意思）
slut 骚货 （非常常用，在某些男人眼里，所有正点的女人都是slut；在某些女人眼里，能被称为slut证明了自身的正点）
fuckin' A  真他妈的对！
太多太多，在名词和动词词组前加fucking, 更添风味。
还有很多动词词组，如
fuck ... up  搞砸了
fuck someone's shit up 一个意思
fuck with someone  惹...
(don't fuck with me, bitch!)
no shit  千真万确，一点不假
哈哈，爽啊。（fuckin' rad/ fuckin' awesome）

　She is a big gossip.她真是个八卦夫人。（喜欢说人闲话）
  I am so fed up with your bull shit, cut the crap.真是受够了，废话少说。
　Hey, wise up. 咳，放聪明点。
　put up or shut up.要么去做，要么闭嘴。（当你叫某人去做点什么事情，他不想去，还喋喋不休说原因的时候，你可以这么说哦。）
　You eat with that mouth? 你是用这个嘴巴吃饭的吗？（当某人骂你骂得很脏的时候，可以这么说。。。）
　You are dead meat. 你死定了。
　Are you raised in the barn? 你是乡下长大的吧？（骂别人很土很不绅士的时候。。。）
　You want to step outside? / you want to take this outside? 你是想到外边解决这个问题吗？（到外边打，比个高低，解决纠纷。。）
　He is a pervert. you pervert. 他是个变态佬。你个变态。

She is such a high-maintenance woman. 她真是个难养的女人。
She is a shrew. 她是个泼妇。
A greasy ball.老滑头，老油条。

钱钟书说，学任何一种语言，都是以寒暄始，以骂人终。项目管理的经验则是，以终为始。那么，先学学英语里的骂人话吧

 You’re such a bitch!

You’re a jerk!
You bastard!
You’re just a good for nothing bum!
I’m about to explode!
What a stupid idiot!
You’re a pain in the ass.
You’re an asshole. 
You make me sick!

唉，太让人失望了，一点冲击性都没有，跟我泱泱中华吵架词汇之恶毒，之阴损，之丰富，如何比得了？

徐老师，该你出马了，贡献几句吧，口味要重些噢

骑白马，跑沙滩

你没有婆姨呀我没汉

咱俩捆成一嘟噜蒜，呼儿嗨哟

土里生来土里烂。

骑白马，挎洋枪

三哥哥吃了八路军的粮

有心回家看姑娘，呼儿嗨哟

打日本也顾不上。

三八枪，没盖盖

八路军当兵的没太太

待到那打下榆林城，呼儿嗨哟

一人一个女学生。
                                          

"你们要进窄门，因为引到灭亡，那门是宽的，路是大的，进去的人也多；引到永生，那门是窄的，路是小的，找着的人也少。"（《新约·马太福音》第7章）
Enter through the narrow gate; for the gate is wide and the road is easy that leads to destruction, and there are many who take it. For the gate is narrow and the road is hard that leads to life, and there are few who find it. "Matthew 7-13,14"

"不可封了这书上的预言，因为日期近了。不义的，叫他仍旧不义；污秽的，叫他仍旧污秽；为义的，叫他仍旧为义；圣洁的，叫他仍旧圣洁。"（《新约·启示录》第22章）
Do not seal up the words of the prophecy of this book, for the time is near. Let the evil doer still do evil, and the filthy still be filthy, and the righteous still do right, and the holy still be holy. 　　

"我又专心察明智慧、狂妄和愚昧，乃知这也是捕风。因为多有智慧，就多有愁烦；加增知识的，就加增忧伤。"（《旧约·传道书》第1章）
And I applied my mind to know wisdom and to know madness and folly. I perceived that this also is but a chasing after wind. For in much wisdom is much vexation, and those who increase knowledge increase sorrow.